17th May 2009

Arini ari ahad..17hb..genap lg 2 bulan bday aku..hehe..skang aku berada di ofis, ade keje sket (gile rajin aku!hahaha)..

Sesambil wat keje, aku sempat gak tgk entry blog aku yg lame2..dr zaman aku blaja..tetibe rindu gile zaman tu...every single entry, gv me a very memorable moment..ape yg aku buat pd mse tu, bile aku knl kwn2, ble aku sakit, bile aku makan, bile aku sedih, sume lah..thanks for my blog..ianya ibarat diari kehidupanku..

ade skali aritu aku hampir close acc utk blog ni..tp nyata semangat berblogging ni maseh utuh dlm jiwa ini..hahaha..poyo gile ayat aku..hihi..sometimes, dr blog aku tau ape rakan2 aku wat dlm hidup die..especially bile kwn2 aku tu xde frenster or facebook atau dh delete...

enough for blog..pg ni aku pening kple tahan dewa..tu sbb aku dtg ofis sbnrnye..aku jugak kusut sbnrnye..haishhh meluahkan prsn lagi..hahaha...sudah2..life must go on.....k la, nk smbg keje..c ya!

> hepy bday to remi..

Update.

just back from 2days course organized by cidb at Dynasty Hotel, Kl..the course titled "Negotiation Skills"..very interesting course..eventho im too tired, wake up so early thn usual, but i enjoy it..later ill share with u about wht ive learnt..

one thing i hate so much is traffic jam at Kl!!!im too stress when stuck in jam..thts y i dont want to find job at Kl and even stay at Kl..please lah!for me, Kl is only for shoping, jalan2..haha..work?never kot!hahaha..

orait, gtg..back to my lovely new house, arrange back my messy room..hidupku kucar-kacir lately..c ya!

> missing sum1 :(

Bila diturut kata hati.

pada satu mlm yg indah (indah ker?)..tgh syiok2 tgk berita kt dlm malaysia ni, tetibe hati kata nk kua jalan2..sepantas kilat g mandi dan siap2 kua..hala tuju maseh lom tau..hanya ikut kata hati dan selebihnye terpulang pd tangan aku memutarkan stering..hmm

hati kemudiannye kate nk g jusco equine park..tp bile dh smpai hati kate xnk turun..pusing2 jap situ then patah balik..sebelum msuk Ldp, tetibe nampak signboard hala je putrajaya..hati kata pegi sane..pusing2 kt sne, lame gak..ingat nk lepak kt souq tu..best gak port tu..aku dh siap parking dah, tp xbrani nk turun lepak memandangkan aku sesorang..hati kate xyah laa..

hala tuju seterusnya, pulang ke shah alam..jam mase tu menunjukkan pukul 10mlm..suke sgt sbb dh jmp satu jalan balik masuk blk Ldp (b4 ni xtau!) hehe..sms kwn aku, tny tempat mne lg yg best lepak?die ckp kalo kt Kl leh dtg lepak ngn die..wpn xstuju nk g Kl, tp stering kete dh hala ke Kl..hati kata ya..ke Kl lg aku mlm ni..20min kemudian smpai kt sne..

kt sne, mmb aku teman aku makan sbb aku xmkn dr siang td..lepak lame gak kt sane, tmn mmb aku jmp kawan die kt ampang..mata xngantok lg wpn jam nk kul1 mse tu..kalo ikut kata hati lg, mau aku xbalik lg time tu..tp sbb sian mmb aku yg demam tu, aku pon balik la..smpai dalam 140 cam gitu..dan akhirnya mlm yg terlalu mengikut kata hati berakhir dengan keletihan yg tak terhingga..

apa yg aku dapat bile mengikut kata hati?sedikit release kot..org kata ikut hati, mati..tp sumtimes, mmg kne layan gak hati ini krn hanya kite yg peduli hati kite, tiada org laen..:)

> thanks la pd sape yg melayan aku yg senget ni..haha

Thank you.

Pagi td aku taip sms..ianye berbunyi begini.. “A bit stress ths moning”
Then my fren replied “nape?”
I said “work plus personal”
My fren still reply my sms eventho dia dlm meeting room..ade presentation by consultant..so aku pon ckp “xpela, sory”
Then he replied “sory2, nnt dh abes meeting aku msg blk”

Kalo org len, agak2 ade tak nk layan aku sms cam gitu?kalo bf aku pon xkn kot..inilah yg dikatakan kawan yg ssh nk dicari..ssh senang bersame walau apepon..he is my truly fren lah..

Bnyk melayan karenah aku yg mcm2 ni..listen to me the most..dialah yg tgk aku menangis, dialah juga yg tgk aku ketawe..dialah yg jaga aku tatkala aku demam di singapura..dialah yg menjadi penasihat terhormat aku..dia jugak yg terpkse dgr mslh aku..

Walaupon aku marah dia, dia marah aku..aku kutuk dia, dia kutuk aku, aku xkesah sbb aku tau hati budinya..tak simpan dlm hati lnsg lah!..kteorg dh berkawan almost 6years (sepanjang di uitm)..blaja same2, cume keje jek xsame skang..bnyk gak mamat ni tlg aku lg2 nk siapkan thesis..mekaseh2..

Dulu rmai slh sngke igtkn kteorg ade affair..but lme2, org pon senyap..bg kteorg biarlah ape org nk kate, asalkan kteorg tau ape situasi sbnrnye..till now, our frenship maseh kekal..

Khas utk dia, terima kaseh atas segalanye..

>slalu jd bossy ngn die..dan dia akn kate “baek boss!”

Back frm holiday.

Balik dr kg semalam..mule2 igt nk blk pg td then terus g keje, tp sbbkn aku demam, aku terus jela gerak smlm..takut bgn pg xlarat nk drive back to shah alam..so smlm redah jela..redah2 pon syok gak, layan prsn sndri smpai xsedar meter kete cecah 140km/hr..hahaha...panas telinge kejap dgr abahku membebel sbb xsmpai sejam aku dh smpai klang dr seremban..adehh!wat perangai dahh..hehe

Las entry aku ade ckp nk pindah masuk mah baru kan..unfortunately, xjd masuk las week..sbbnye owner xsiap renovate lagi..die ngh psg tile dlm blk aku..plus minor works lah..saba2..ari khamis ni lah pindah..means kami satu umah bercuti!!yeyyyy...(fyi, ni umh staff - company provide)..so leh la cuti..soknye lak labour day, cuti lagi!!(bday adek, hepy bday!!)

Oh ye..sblm terlupe..cite psal sahabatku yg selamat berkawen ngn pilihan hatinye..majlisnye meriah..die pilih kaler dark choc..cantek!hehe..tp xrmai kwn2 yg dtg..sbbnye mebi musim final exam (dorg further study pjj klas weekend)..pastu mungkin xdpt cuti..Maybe!i dunno..aku len, sbb aku ni semangat sket..kalo ade mjlis, mmg aku akan dtg selagi dijemput..kwn2 kan..jauh mane akan ku pegi jua..insyaAllah..ceyy..hehe

> just realised yg bdn aku pnas lagi..haishh..

Balik Kg!

Tujuan balik kg ni ade dua sebenarnye..satu ada majlis cukur jambul anak sedare aku suraya..the nex day (sunday), sahabatku lak kawen...wawawa..cikgu fizik ni..sorg sorg kawen..bulan 6 ni aku ade 3 majlis menanti kedatangan ku..hehehe..

Balik ahad ni, aku mula berpindah ke rumah baru! dr klang ke shah alam..dekat sket ngn ofis kt ttdi jaya..brg2 td dh kemas time lunch..penat gile!xpe, sok ade org tlg angkat kan..org site dtg tlg angktkan..heavennyee hidup aku..hehe

> mood arini biase2 aje..
> my konvo 30th May (saje nk bgtau awal..hehe)
> bulan 6 insyaAllah ke Pantai Timur (sajee gak!)

Serabut cam sabut.

i had a small conversation with my oficemate during lunch..women's talk..hehe..got a lots of input..cite sket2 my problem lately..

problems:

1. headache agak teruk lately..mebi becoz minum bnyk sgt kopi (mslh lme ni..hehe)..but the worse part is i faced some problem in body movement..pergerakan xstabil..jalan asek langgar bende jek (pintu, meje)..kalo jalan tu, cm lalok..haha..tak tipu, tp its true!serious rite??

2. i need fresh air..my room (ofis n house) both xde opening, i mean tingkap..i need sunshine so tht leh rse fresh..again, confine space problem (claustrophobia)..faced ths problem b4..seb baek my new house nnt blk i ade tingkap..sounds silly kan problem ni?

3. thinking too much..ths is my big problem..dh ramai ckp i mcm ni..haishh..tp xleh la, mest nk pk dan pk dan pk..hadoyai..slalunye time free2, nk tdo, mule lah jadi bend ni..at last, terlena dalam pemikiran.....

sume mslh ni drag me into depression..have to admit it..xsangka i faced ths problem..and mse sembang2 td, my fren said sumthg yg really good for me lah..

solution:

1. control minum kopi tu..kurangkan kalo leh (bole ker?hehe)..but dont forget to exercise..

2. ths one ssh sket sbb sakit sape leh tahan kan?bnykkan berjalan, amek udara segar, jgn dok terperap jek dlm bilik either office or house..ni aku slalu wat sbb xleh dok dlm blk lme sgt..kne gak jalan2..

3. do not thinking too much..let it be..she ask me "can u solve ur prob by the time u r thinking?no kan?so just let it be..sumtimes, problem can b solved by the time.."..i think its true..and she suggest me to read some books or listen to music b4 sleep..our brain need rest..when we r thinking, its still working..meaning tht my brain do not hv enough rest..true!i tortured my brain lah..sory..hehe

i think i shud follow those suggestion lah..harapnye no depression anymore..if tak menjadi jugak, i think i shud go for pakar lah..

> depression oh depression!
> just realised tht sumtimes i need to talk to sumbody else bout my prob (sy perahsie orgnye)

Bergembira seketika.

lokasi : restoren rasa syg, sek7 & borneo, sunway







> wpn kaki injured, tp hati perlu juge digembirakan..mekaseh kekawan :)

Baru.

Permulaan yg baru.
Semangat yg baru.
Hati yg baru.
Jiwa yg baru.
Perasaan yg baru.
Keazaman yg baru.
Keyakinan yg baru.
Kepastian yg baru.
Hala tuju yg baru.
Hidup yg baru.

> Semoge permulaan yg baru ini dpt memberikan kebahagian dan ketenangan pdku..Amin..

Bila.

bila bnyk mslah dtg pd mse yg sama, otak seolah tepu utk berpikir..the best way is aku mengelak utk berpikir..but sooner or later, i have to solve those prob..

1. family - ade sesuatu timbul dlm keluarge ku..im not goin to tell in ths blog wht exactly the prob..but ape yg bermain dlm pikiranku, "perlukah aku setuju?", "how to accept?", "adakah aku akn jd anak yg xmemahami?", "aku konpius!!"..

2. personal - i have to accept it..i'd take a very high risk, then i shud well prepared b4 teruskan sumenyee..so now, its the time yg aku perlu terima sumenyee..insyaAllah, ill b OK.

3. work - a lots of work..but just settle some works..tp still bnyk lg..nvm, this is work..no work no money maa!hehehehe

hopefully i can settle those prob sebaiknyee..im just hepy with my new dearie 'bf'...:)

kerana dia

kerana dia, aku suka.

kerana dia, aku benci.

kerana dia, aku gembira.

kerana dia, aku sedih.

kerana dia, aku keliru.

kerana dia, aku kuat.

kerana dia, aku kecewa.

kerana dia, aku bahagia.

kerana dia, aku ketawa.

kerana dia, aku risau.

kerana dia, aku kalah.

kerana dia, semuanya kerana dia.

kenapa kerana dia??hmmm..

myFeel

- dissapointed

- relief

- happy

- excited

its mixed..and its balance..hurmmmm...sob sob..

tentang cinta.

early in the morning, aku godek2 frenster ku yg dh lme dibiarkan tersadai begitu saje..upload la sket gmb bru..then trse nk tgk page kwn2..terlihatlah gmb kwnku diah dimjlis bertandang di rmh husband die..its sooooo nice, evrythg looks perfecto!kesah cinta sahabatku ini agak senang, kerna husband die adelah yg cinta pertamanya..

tp tidak bg aku..honestly, kesah cintaku penuh onak dan duri..sukar..but im still trying eventho till one stage, i wanna give up..cinta xboleh dipisahkan dr hidupku..im nt desperate, but its just my life..rse ingin disayangi dan menyanyangi..cinta yg melimpah ruah ni perlu diberikan pd seseorg..

however, its not easy to find my soulmate..still searching till now..somehow, we find the perfect one, but we feel that hes not for us..knp org laen jugak yg dikejar sdgkn ade yg menanti??itulah kehidupan..mencari dan menanti yg xpasti..setia menanti wpn diri tak dihargai.....

im always motivate myself that theres must be sum1 who much more better than him..insyaAllah..maybe im too choosy, too fussy..the word 'better' here means that mayb ill find sum1 who will love me more than i love him..always make me feel comfortable, appreciate, n even i dont need anythg else coz i have him!hope ill find ths guy...aminn...

kadang kala rse sgt bodoh diri ini..kadang kala mahu cinta ini mati..sumenye kerna cinta..kerna cinta, aku jd sakit jiwa..jujur kukatakan..but good side of it, i can breath becoz of love..my life being so colorful..not only black n white..eventho he doesnt appreciate me, but at least my life have some other color..i can feel happy, sad, mad, fun, laugh, love, miss and evrythg just bcoz of him..thanks for that..

if we turning back, we can see that what uve gone thru rite now, seem u had done for sum1 else..what u give, u get back..sumtime we r at top, but sumtime we r at bottom..its a circle..a rotation of life..i believe that thg..we cant predict or even hold that..its HIS job..wht we can do is just pray for our happiness..

cinta kalau dibicarakan, takkan pernah habis..cinta ada dimana2..terpulang pd kite memilihnya, menghargainya, menikmatinya..setiap org ade jodoh msg2, percaye pada itu, tp jika sudah jmp jodoh itu, hargailah ia kerna sekali kite melepaskannya, mungkin die xkn kembali kpd kite..once again, hargailah apa yg kite ada sebelum terlambat.....

> cinta itu indah jika kita tau menghargainya